Recently my pastor, Dr. Richard Hunter, posted a piece on feeling inadequate.
I wanted to add something to this. Richard, if we were adequate, we would have no need of God.
Lord, I need thee EVERY HOUR. Not just when I acknowledge my overwhelmed-ness, but every hour. Not just when I feel like I can't do this on my own, but every single moment. There is a blessed security in completely surrendering to the fact that God is in charge. Much like when my beautiful baby girl relaxes into my arms.
Ginny can’t spend all her time in my arms. She has to learn to do things on her own. She will eventually grow into a competent adult. But even a competent adult is not enough to stand up against the horrors of this world. Somehow, I need to teach her (and myself) to continually surrender to God. Let Him be in charge. Let Him lift us over the things we know we can’t get over AND over the rough places that we think we could handle on our own.
There is a sweetness in surrender, a peace, an uplifting joy that comes from really knowing that God is in charge. Not in a dictatorial sense, but in a protective, sheltering, loving sense. I don’t see His arms around me as shackles that are keeping me from running free. Instead I see those loving arms like the strong arms of a mommy (or daddy) holding me close because He loves me and enjoys my very presence.
The same way that I can’t get enough of hugging Ginny….God feels even more about me….and you. Don’t believe me? Think I’m off my rocker? Okay. He SAYS so. God’s own words:
Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name: you are Mine.
How great is the love the Father has lavished on us,
that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!
1 John 3:1a
the LORD delights in those who fear* him,
who put their hope in his unfailing love.
(*to me this use of the word “fear” translates as respect)
This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.
I John 3: 16
How much would I do for someone who loves me this much? Anything LORD. Anything. No more holding back. I surrender. All.